When I hit my 30's losing weight became a lot harder. I couldn't drop the weight with just skipping meals and eating salads. I turned to diet pills for a quick fix. The Addipex worked like a charm but I became unbearable to be around. Ryan put his foot down at that point and said no more pills. I started to gain my weight. I was busy as a mom, running here and there, but not working out. Our work schedules mixed with the boys schedules left me pooped and finding excuses not to work out. I began to feel hopeless about my weight. The icing on the cake came at 35...I got pregnant with Logan! I didn't have trouble losing the baby weight in my 20's but at 35 the baby weight did not melt away as easily. I would lose 20 pounds and gain 30 pounds...it was a roller coaster. I tried all the silly diets and was just plain miserable with myself and becoming a miserable person to be around. Ryan still told me every day he loved me and I was beautiful.
Friday, March 4, 2016
I have been thinking about the word soulmate a lot lately. The whole conversation came up the other night between my husband, Ryan, and I. I have been feeling pretty down lately concerning my weight. I know that most women can relate to having weight issues and feeling down about it. I have not always been overweight. In high school I was very thin. I never had to worry about what I ate. I was very active and could eat whatever I wanted. Ryan and I met when we were in elementary and started dating in high school. My husband met me when I was very thin. I competed in pageants and loved having big TEXAS hair and lots of makeup. I felt good about myself when I looked in the mirror. Ryan told me almost every day that he loved me and that I was beautiful.